"Lose your dreams and you will lose your mind" they said.
Sat there by the window,
drew up my knees, hugged them.
Stared into the pouring rain, on
Pink anthuriums and red ixoras
Thoroughly drenched and dripping wet
My chest heavy as I waited.
I knew that he knew, my restless eyes
Could spot him in an angry crowd.
He defined everything around me,
The time, the depth, the joy and the despair.
Shook water off his hair as he smiled,
The smile he had carried since boyhood, my only treasure.
I wasn't even thinking anymore, it
Suddenly felt so hard to cling to thoughts.
Smelled the rain on him, before
Tasting it in the hollow of his throat.
I existed only where his dark eyes rested
As desire shaped the rest of the night.
The storm continued to go wild around us,
And the night kept watch, like a faithful friend.
The rest was a frenzy of blurred images,
The angle of his collar bones, the strength in his arms,
His bony wrists and his perfect fingers.
He gathered all my broken pieces as a breeze lifted off.
It felt like a distant dream, a vision,
Even on the many nights that followed,
The cold, wet, humid, quiet nights.
Every time he walked away, he left behind
A garden, one that grew roots into my veins
And bloomed into my darkest corners.
Took his face into my hands
And drew it close to mine, eyes closed.
How long did it last? Did it even last?
Each time he left, he took away a part of me,
That I willingly let him steal ,
Deep down I knew, they were safer with him.
You laughed the stars
Into the sky..
Breeze in your hair
Light in your eyes
As I stood there with you
My hand safe in yours..
Letting the moment sink in
As my heart skipped a beat
And wondered if only
My blessings knew my flaws..
@Reowr prompt laughter challenge. Love to you my friend for making my morning deep and dreamy.
I keep finding you in random sentences
On random pages of good books
Let it sink into my wandering mind,
Like peonies on a stormy night.
I would let the pale moon light
Paint your skin across mine,
And curse it's luck under my breath
Blessed be my eyes.
I want it and I want it now
Don't let the rain make me wait
"I know, it's not normal"
Trying to keep it masked
And then I hear your voice..
"We should wait"
Like shadows in slow motion
Apologies won't fix this
"You have no idea"
I can't handle it anymore
My breath gave it away
"Take me places"
Keep the fire burning
Pick the roses you planted..
Even if life leads us to the point
Of slamming doors and hurling words
Silent rooms and empty hallways
I want our souls and bodies
To find their way to each other
To weave a blanket around each other
And hold us tight and still
Till it's sunshine and rainbows again.
People said they exist only in the movies
Books may be, that I dug into as a kid.
Got a bit older, and they faded away
I trusted they didn't exist anymore.
May be I was too romantic to be real,
May be 'cause of all the things I saw
Pushed to the verge of giving up.
Then came your shoulder to lean on
Saw myself in you
Shadows of your thoughts
Rest of the world turned to grey
A wave of perfection
A beautiful rhythm,
Running wild, changed everything.
Tell me you want me
With brimming desire
"In your eyes I'm at home"
Bring colour to my skies
Set my heart on fire
"Forgive me for breathing"
Kiss your way into our future.
I don't wish to wait any longer
Let it keep getting better each time
And I don't care if they stop to stare
I miss the taste of our sweet life
Like all the roads I took came to you
"Hands on each other"
"The closer the better"
I can never forget how colourful it was
Hope alone filled my insides
Gave me a million reasons to smile
To feel better about tomorrow
And it all came crashing down
Shattering me to pieces
The grief so bad,
Memories still make my chest feel heavy
So much that I am tired
Of this place and the people
I probably need ages to replace
All that I had given away
Deep down, I still want it
A home, a garden may be
Yellow sunsets and quiet nights
All fading away in my mind
Our lives will never collide again
And I am never repeating my mistakes
Volumes of trust thrown down the drain
My scars will never heal, and that's fine
I gave my all and I still will to the right one
Only to someone who knows me inside out
Will let the rain drench my soul down
Someday, as I hold his hand in mine.
I die every night thinking of that face
The memory of those lips
The sight of them as you spoke
Willing hard to get that out of my mind
Surprisingly doesn't seem to work
And I haven't kissed that sight goodbye yet
It's been months in real, and decades in my head.
Left me wondering what it is like
To know you the way I wish to
To be a part of you
To feel the world around me freeze
As I feel those lips on mine,
Probably like Sugar and Strawberries?
Hell yes, it's worth the wait,
To let that taste linger on my tongue
To treat myself to a holiday.
They are in all shades of green
Some shades of brown and yellow
Some variegated like in a piece of art
Some in full bloom and glory
Some gloomy from missing the Sun.
They all stare at me, endlessly
Deep into my soul
Like they know the truth
That I am not me anymore
That I am broken
That I am shattered
Into a million pieces
And I break again on every new day
It just doesn't stop.
I cry endless tears
Tears of pain and regret
Tears of guilt and remorse
Tears of helplessness
From depths so dark
It scares me to death.
They've seen me hold on
To pieces of hope and comfort
Before losing it again.
They've seen me tend to them
Caress their new shoots
Watch their roots curl
Feel their flowers bloom
Mourn their falling leaves
With love and concern
Like they were my babies,
Like they heard the voices in my head
And understood my whispers.
They still sit in patience
Watching me rise and go to bed
Every other day as usual
Now an integral part of me,
You ll know I am long gone
When you see them withered.