"Lose your dreams and you will lose your mind" they said.
Sat there by the window,
drew up my knees, hugged them.
Stared into the pouring rain, on
Pink anthuriums and red ixoras
Thoroughly drenched and dripping wet
My chest heavy as I waited.
I knew that he knew, my restless eyes
Could spot him in an angry crowd.
He defined everything around me,
The time, the depth, the joy and the despair.
Shook water off his hair as he smiled,
The smile he had carried since boyhood, my only treasure.
I wasn't even thinking anymore, it
Suddenly felt so hard to cling to thoughts.
Smelled the rain on him, before
Tasting it in the hollow of his throat.
I existed only where his dark eyes rested
As desire shaped the rest of the night.
The storm continued to go wild around us,
And the night kept watch, like a faithful friend.
The rest was a frenzy of blurred images,
The angle of his collar bones, the strength in his arms,
His bony wrists and his perfect fingers.
He gathered all my broken pieces as a breeze lifted off.
It felt like a distant dream, a vision,
Even on the many nights that followed,
The cold, wet, humid, quiet nights.
Every time he walked away, he left behind
A garden, one that grew roots into my veins
And bloomed into my darkest corners.
Took his face into my hands
And drew it close to mine, eyes closed.
How long did it last? Did it even last?
Each time he left, he took away a part of me,
That I willingly let him steal ,
Deep down I knew, they were safer with him.
You laughed the stars
Into the sky..
Breeze in your hair
Light in your eyes
As I stood there with you
My hand safe in yours..
Letting the moment sink in
As my heart skipped a beat
And wondered if only
My blessings knew my flaws..
@Reowr prompt laughter challenge. Love to you my friend for making my morning deep and dreamy.
I keep finding you in random sentences
On random pages of good books
Let it sink into my wandering mind,
Like peonies on a stormy night.
I would let the pale moon light
Paint your skin across mine,
And curse it's luck under my breath
Blessed be my eyes.
Even if life leads us to the point
Of slamming doors and hurling words
Silent rooms and empty hallways
I want our souls and bodies
To find their way to each other
To weave a blanket around each other
And hold us tight and still
Till it's sunshine and rainbows again.
I can never forget how colourful it was
Hope alone filled my insides
Gave me a million reasons to smile
To feel better about tomorrow
And it all came crashing down
Shattering me to pieces
The grief so bad,
Memories still make my chest feel heavy
So much that I am tired
Of this place and the people
I probably need ages to replace
All that I had given away
Deep down, I still want it
A home, a garden may be
Yellow sunsets and quiet nights
All fading away in my mind
Our lives will never collide again
And I am never repeating my mistakes
Volumes of trust thrown down the drain
My scars will never heal, and that's fine
I gave my all and I still will to the right one
Only to someone who knows me inside out
Will let the rain drench my soul down
Someday, as I hold his hand in mine.
It was just going to be a painful continuation of the months prior
Of brimming doubt and self pity
Of endless nights and long days
Of dark shadows and nightmares.
It was five days into December
When things took a turn.
I wont lie, I did resist.
Did it work? Hardly a week,
May be two?
Someone just walked into my Winter
Slow at first, like the summer rains,
Its probably a dream till date,
One I never wish to wake up from.
It changed about everything that I thought I knew
About me, about pain, about life.
I saw sunshine and rainbows, would have named
Unicorns too, if I wasn't in my mid twenties.
It burned away reality, redefined it,
Made me stare at sunsets,
Crave for chocolate ice cream?
Days when a yellow leaf amazed me for hours.
I remember every single exchange
For a month every song I heard was about those eyes,
Hoping that what's meant to be, will be.
Realising I didn't need ages to replace what I gave away.
It's a long wait, and its okay.
Seeing our untold story unfold in my head every night,
Waking up with the taste of your lips on mine,
The sight of you breathing bringing me back to life,
The usual rush of thoughts before reality creeps back,
Only to remind me of solitude again.
Every morsel of this desire is sweet.
I would walk a million miles only to
Watch our worlds collide,
To hear you say my name
And let my fears fly high.
What if I would never get to hold you,
If not now, and never again?
That I wont settle for anything less,
Will this haunting ever end?
Shattering every piece of hope i carried.
But it is warm, full of life,
Filling every void I was left with.
While fear lurks its way back into me,
Taking over every nook and corner,
I am fighting a million battles every minute
Only to taste your fearless love
Even if it lasts for a mere moment.
"Nothing is an accident" never did I
Believe in that, and you came by.
Right in front of my eyes..
This 'whatever you would like to call it' between us
US making me turn red.
Two souls don't circle each other either,
By accident. I know..
Its dreamy, its complicated.
But I am going to let it stay
Probably grow old in its memory.
Let it bloom in places its not allowed to.