Oh No..!

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I want it and I want it now
Don't let the rain make me wait
"I know, it's not normal"
Trying to keep it masked
And then I hear your voice..
"We should wait"
Like shadows in slow motion
Apologies won't fix this
"You have no idea"
I can't handle it anymore
My breath gave it away
"Take me places"
Keep the fire burning
Pick the roses you planted..





No Regrets

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I can never forget how colourful it was
Hope alone filled my insides
Gave me a million reasons to smile
To feel better about tomorrow

And it all came crashing down
Shattering me to pieces
The grief so bad,
Memories still make my chest feel heavy

So much that I am tired
Of this place and the people
I probably need ages to replace
All that I had given away

Deep down, I still want it
A home, a garden may be
Yellow sunsets and quiet nights
All fading away in my mind

Our lives will never collide again
And I am never repeating my mistakes
Volumes of trust thrown down the drain
My scars will never heal, and that's fine

I gave my all and I still will to the right one
Only to someone who knows me inside out
Will let the rain drench my soul down
Someday, as I hold his hand in mine.

Pieces of my Shattered Heart

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They are in all shades of green
Some shades of brown and yellow
Some variegated like in a piece of art
Some in full bloom and glory
Some gloomy from missing the Sun.
They all stare at me, endlessly
Deep into my soul
Like they know the truth
That I am not me anymore
That I am broken
That I am shattered
Into a million pieces
And I break again on every new day
It just doesn't stop.
I cry endless tears
Tears of pain and regret
Tears of guilt and remorse
Tears of helplessness
From depths so dark
It scares me to death.
They've seen me hold on
To pieces of hope and comfort
Before losing it again.
They've seen me tend to them
Caress their new shoots 
Watch their roots curl
Feel their flowers bloom
Mourn their falling leaves
With love and concern
Like they were my babies,
Like they heard the voices in my head
And understood my whispers.
They still sit in patience
Watching me rise and go to bed
Every other day as usual
Now an integral part of me,
You ll know I am long gone
When you see them withered.

The Sunflowers

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Too good to even exist, my mind turns to stone 
And my heart takes lead. I bet it knows nothing
About the things that really matter.
But I do know words,
To put them on a string,
To paint my world on paper.
Where sunflowers and stars exist together.
A million years may go by,
I would still stare at you, those eyebrows
And the scar in between.
May be dream of it later.
And grow fond of it.
Let you flow through my veins,
Where wild flowers grow,
Unseen and uncontrolled.

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